February 2010
59 posts
Dent in my side.
There it is; bugging me. It’ll always be there no matter what.
This isn’t something you can buff out; no mere scratch or nick. This is something way worse.
This is the dent in my side; the thoughts in my head, and the regret sitting in my mind; bugging me.
January 2010
58 posts
Wow.
I’ve just had another Jester moment, I’m so fucking content with life right now.
I’m more than content, I want to give stuff away.
I have an awesome life, awesome friends, and an awesome future.
I’m Curtis Jester, and I’m happy, for once; genuinely.
You guys should totally think the same of yours, it’ll change you.
on the brink
how come it ended like this
“Life is nothing like its meant to be; the depression, the sickness, the weak and...”
Too bad.
Too bad there isn’t anyone to talk to right now.
Too bad I can’t go sit down with them and just talk.
Too bad I can’t explain myself, everything, to someone and they’ll be unbiased.
Too bad I can’t be myself, and express it without holding anything back.
Too bad I doubt I’ll ever find a friend like that.
If you’re out there, anywhere; which I doubt...
My dreams are nothing like they're meant to be.
I’ll never find the words to explain completely how I’m breaking down.
i just won't tell
forget it all
“Without you, my heart is broken.”
I've got a secret
It’s on the tip of my tongue; it’s on the back of my lungs.
And I’m gonna keep it.
I know something you don’t know.
“The most important things are the hardest to say, because words diminish them”
“Happiness is never stopping to think if you are.”
“I don’t want to let go, but what I’ve failed to realize is that...”
– Curtis Jester.
“Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer but wish we...”
“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don’t matter...”
– Dr. Seuss
“I’d rather walk alone, then chase you around, and I’d rather fall by...”
Once
Your tears will touch your bed sheets at least once in your life. I know this for a fact.
No one will ever click this, but I'll know they... →
“I look back at that moment and realize, one thing not said, or one thing I did...”
– Curtis Jester
“I want to be your favorite hello and your hardest goodbye.”
Regret. →
You can read this as you please, its only a choice, you may regret if you choose to not read it.
“youre the best i never had.”
– The Downtown Fiction (via lyinglikeliions)
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She's moving way too fast and all he wanted was to...
He whispers that he loves her,
but she’s probably only looking for
so much more than he could ever give.
it'll all unfold
and you’ll realize you don’t need it.
or him.
or her.
21 and no time to come.
My sister just got in a car accident. 3 hours from here. In north carolina. When she’s supposed to be in school. How stupid is she? Oh, no other cars were involved. Hmmmmm. She’s a bad driver too; careless. I care about her and wouldn’t be saying what’s above if she was hurt, which she isn’t.
It used to be the reason I breathed but now it's...
Die young and save yourself.
Holy.
Never have I cracked so many gay jokes in one night.
I’m sorry for men who actually are gay.
Oh My.
Hmmm. Sam Starner, sleeping over in my house?
To what do I owe this great honor of manliness and perposterone sleeping so close to my feeble body?
I hope some of his sexiness could rub off, and rub on me.
Phone?
Why is it always when I’m allowed to order my phone, its on a weekend that also includes a holiday on Monday?
Convince me.
thedifferences:
jesterism:
Already done.
I love youuuuuuuu.
I love you too Carmen.
Convince me.
Already done.
This misery will suffice
thedifferences:
jesterism:
thedifferences:
jesterism:
thedifferences:
jesterism:
thedifferences:
jesterism:
There isn’t anything worse than emotional turmoil, except the feeling you get if you know you can’t help it.
I very much dislike this. :( I love you Jester.
Don’t worry Esquivel, all is well, I promise.
This doesn’t really convince me.
I’m sorry, convincing someone...
This misery will suffice
thedifferences:
jesterism:
thedifferences:
jesterism:
thedifferences:
jesterism:
There isn’t anything worse than emotional turmoil, except the feeling you get if you know you can’t help it.
I very much dislike this. :( I love you Jester.
Don’t worry Esquivel, all is well, I promise.
This doesn’t really convince me.
I’m sorry, convincing someone isn’t what I’m aiming for....
This misery will suffice
thedifferences:
jesterism:
thedifferences:
jesterism:
There isn’t anything worse than emotional turmoil, except the feeling you get if you know you can’t help it.
I very much dislike this. :( I love you Jester.
Don’t worry Esquivel, all is well, I promise.
This doesn’t really convince me.
I’m sorry, convincing someone isn’t what I’m aiming for. Convincing myself...
This misery will suffice
thedifferences:
jesterism:
There isn’t anything worse than emotional turmoil, except the feeling you get if you know you can’t help it.
I very much dislike this. :( I love you Jester.
Don’t worry Esquivel, all is well, I promise.
This misery will suffice
There isn’t anything worse than emotional turmoil, except the feeling you get if you know you can’t help it.
Odd →
I don't know where I am
I open my eyes to find you standing here, but I don’t believe it.
Second Cousin.
My second cousin who’s 68 or 69 has Pneumonia, has fallen three times in the last week, is bed ridden, and has a cut over his eye, fractured his arm an he now has a broken shoulder. He also has spots on his lungs from smoking since the age of 12. He is also mentally retarded, however, that hasn’t stopped him from leading a life filled with family, love, and his savior Jesus.
\Hope...
Movies; they're right.
I think everyone’s been selfish in a way that you want someone that someone else is dating. That’s just a given it’ll happen once. So what makes this special? No matter how many times people are jealous of people’s significant others, every time they realize this, its special. When they have the moment of, ah, you know what, I’ve got something too, and well, just I...
Yet again, be happy you're peeking into another... →